Mh--------, RSD triggering 

Sometimes I wanna run away and never be seen again by society,
Just so I can never have the fear of people leaving me, or rejecting me anymore.
I'm so sick of these thoughts in my head telling me I'm worthless to them.
I hate this.
Why can't I see their love and affection and appreciate it before they go.

Did they even love me to begin with?
Everything feels so fabricated.
That, people only stick around because I said hi and they got dragged in by their heels.

Mh--------, RSD triggering 

Recently these thoughts have been very hard and soon I'm going to have to reach out to a therapist.

They are so hard to live with. I feel like my heart is a blender chopping up my insides.

It's always asking,
Why are you never good enough?

Mh--------, RSD triggering 

My body may be in the present,
But my mind is in the future.
Alone,
Alone,
Alone.

Mh--------, RSD triggering 

I'm sorry.

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Mh--------, RSD triggering 

I'm sorry...

I'm messing up again.
I'm sorry.

Mh--------, RSD triggering 

I keep pushing people away.
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I'm like this.
I'm sorry

Mh--------, RSD triggering 

I'm sorry for posting this.
I'm sorry.
Please don't leave.
I'm sorry.
.....

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