Sometimes I wanna run away and never be seen again by society,
Just so I can never have the fear of people leaving me, or rejecting me anymore.
I'm so sick of these thoughts in my head telling me I'm worthless to them.
I hate this.
Why can't I see their love and affection and appreciate it before they go.

Did they even love me to begin with?
Everything feels so fabricated.
That, people only stick around because I said hi and they got dragged in by their heels.

Recently these thoughts have been very hard and soon I'm going to have to reach out to a therapist.

They are so hard to live with. I feel like my heart is a blender chopping up my insides.

It's always asking,
Why are you never good enough?

My body may be in the present,
But my mind is in the future.
Alone,
Alone,
Alone.