Not only will I be taking a break from VRC meetups but I will also be taking a break from here because there is overlap between here and there. I don't want this calming place begin to have distaste for me too.
I'm hurting really bad right now. I miss my friends. Mental symptoms have become physical symptoms. If you need to contact me, please DM me your discord name and tag. Thanks.
I highly encourage anyone who distrusts me or no longer wants to be a friend, to unfollow me here, unfriend me in VRC, and on discord:
So that I may no longer be a risk to anyone that thinks me one in the future. Or come in undesired contact.
I believe I'm a kind person that never wants to do harm to someone. When I do, I am more than greatly upset by my own unjust actions. I always try to make things up to someone, sometimes it just doesn't work. Please unfollow and unfriend if you must.
Currently still feeling unsafe to resume posting for a while. The grief has only really started unfortunately, I'm afraid it will only get worse with time... it hurts very very much already. It's quite unbearable as is tbh.
I miss my friends.
I miss having them and their trust.
Things hurt right now, I don't know of these feelings will ever leave me. I doubt they will for a long time. I don't know if I can be here (and post) until then.
I'll keep people posted. Sorry everyone.