I feel too bad to be on VRChat, I haven't been in in so long, I don't want accidentally hurt someone with my presence and by mistake again....
Ever since I was banned from the main meetups I haven't been able to get myself online at all :(
It just doesn't feel safe or right for me to be in there anymore. :(
All I do is hurt people by mistake and I'm probably never going to feel fully comfortable in that game again.
I don't even feel comfortable here half the time.
It's incredibly difficult to loose all your friends again and again.
I really tried this time to be a good person to not make the same mistakes. I'm just a human with a social disorder.
I've been hurt so much this time.
I can't get back up...
This has seriously broken me.
I'm tired of pretending that I'm okay.
Loosing all there friend I made this year in a single instant like that... Was too much to handle and still is.
It taught me, I'm going to be an outcast forever.
Nobody is gonna read this,
Nobody is gonna want to read this.
But I guess that's fine.
Nobody wanted me there in the first place because;
I'm always gonna be an outcast.
I'm always going to hurt people by mistake.
And nobody wants to live with someone like me in their lives.
I'm just a fucking burden.